Part of me

I always believed I run a very complicated or rather different kind of a life, growing up I was raised by a single parent, my mother, she is a darling, Daddy passed on while I was doing my grade 3, well you can imagine how life was!! We actually had to fight for a lot of things before we could get them, I didn’t really like the kind of a life, but I didn’t really hate it..

I always told myself that better days are coming my way, I looked at everyday as an opportunity to change tomorrow, for some reason I enjoyed my space alone than anything else, I hated crowd well I still do, so I could spend most of my space alone, I always have been so skeptical about the kind of friends I keep, this was mostly because I hated being influenced to do things I was not really ready to involve myself in, hmm this includes boyfriends and stuff, well one of the things that would run in my mind as a teen was “Girl If you gonna try and get yourself a BF, you actually signing applications for pregnancy..”, well I wasn’t ready for that, so I chose to stay away from trouble.

Well this helped me in one way or the other, I’m saying this because i kind of spent half of my teenage life in a place where teenage pregnancy appeared to be fashion, so for me it was like I had to better be safe than sorry, besides, I didn’t understand anything about relationships by that time so involving myself in any was not an option,

Another part of me was my obsession with education, this was mostly because I believed that education is capable of changing the state of my life and my family to the better, So completing my matric and enrolling in tertiary was something very much exciting that I even befriended myself with focus, well my career has its own ups and downs that sometimes I would find myself crying only because I was scared of failure, and doing things the wrong way, I’m not saying I don’t fail, I do like any other person so when I do, I always look at failures as learning curves that can help me tomorrow in doing things better…

Well as much as tertiary was exciting number of challenges accompanied excitement, manier times I felt drained and going forward seemed like something scary to do,…but through God I managed be at the point I am right now,

This post seeks to point out the fact that everybody has been through something, one way or the other but there is always hope at the end of the day, all that one needs to do is keep your faith up and don’t give up what you believe in.